Friday, March 27, 2009

Disability

Today at my Dr's apt. He has agreed to place me on maternity disability due to my pelvic pain that occurs especially after I work. I am happy and nervous to be disability simply because of money and the uncertainty of the government. However I am happy to finally have the time to concentrate on my pregnancy and be able to participate in my prenatal water class and yoga. I am also happy to have time to get my house ready for the baby. I know that everything will work out and that I don't need to worry about a thing...so I will focus on that.

Training wheels

I have thought for a while now about doing a blog, but have always felt that I wouldn't be able to keep up, find the time, or felt it might become a waste of time due to no one reading. Well, with the encouragement of a friend, here I finally am. Getting rid of MySpace has helped since Facebook doesn't have a Blog area. I hope if nothing else my family and friends might be able to gain a bit of insight into who I am and what is going on with my family. Living so far away from my family I am always interested in finding ways to stay connected since I am not a phone person. I actually hate the phone because I am a lip reader, so I find the phone difficult to keep my mind on topic. So here it is, my first post of hopefully many.

My life now....

My life has not always been God glorifying. God has had a hand in my life when I was still a sinner and picked me up, thankfully before I had to hit rock bottom. I truly believe if God had not saved me, I probably would be dead. I was headed down a life of drugs and promiscuity and it is only by Gods grace that I did not contract an STD, die by my stupid behavior that got me into potentially bad situations or became hooked on somthing terrible. I remember when I was in high school, and trying to figure out this whole God, religion thing...that I prayed God would give me a God-fearing husband. I am not sure why I was compelled to pray that but I did, and God delivered me a wonderful God-fearing husband that became an instrument God used to pull me out of the darkness I was in. So here I am now, I wife, a mother, and a woman who loves God with every fiber of her being. Wiser now from the life I had lived...with a strange ability to talk openly about my previous life without feeling humiliated by it, but instead hoping and wishing that maybe by sharing my history I might be able to help another person from making similar mistakes.