Mommy of 2

I thought there would be a lot of difficulties when I becamea mommy of 2. People warned me that life with 2 would not be double the work, but quadruple. When I had Sarah I was so afraid to take the 2 out. I didn't know, and feared , what to do if Josh bolted on me. For a while I let that fear keep me home and isolated. However, starting out with baby steps, I have learned that the obstacles I thought would be problems, ended up being minor. I have learned how to put 2 kids under the age of 2 into the car at the same time, I have learned how to bounce back and forth between a toddlers needs and a baby's cries. I am SO busy now a days, I don't remember what I used to do with my time I had with just one. However, I think the biggest change for me is how much love I am now capable of.
Being single, I was incredibly selfish. Even married I was still selfish, but was learning to work through problems and overlook things that in the grand scheme of things didn't matter. When I had Josh my heart was "walking outside my body". My heart learned to break over skinned up knees and little tears. I had to learn to balance my life making sure my priorities were God, Neal, Josh. That was a very hard lesson to learn that I still struggle with daily. When I had Sarah, I think something truly amazing happened. My heart grew. I didn't know I could love anymore then I already did; but then it happened. My love for my family grew, my love for God grew, but even more amazing my love for others, has grown.
I grew a heart for new moms especially. I have a huge deisre to help them figure this mom thing out. I guess having gone through just 2 years of it, and knowing how tough it can be, makes me want to encourage other moms so much. Being a mom is SO rewarding and the payment of hugs, kisses and giggles is worth more then all the money in the world. I have 4 friends that just had babies, and I find myself praying for these women daily. I love being a wife and mother, they had been my hearts desire from when I was a youth, but to be in the middle of my life and able to sit back and look at it and say, "praise God! this is GOOD!" I couldn't have asked for a better life, I couldn't have asked for a better husband or kids. The path that God put me on to get me here, was truly divine. Although I did stray off it, God still saw me to this point. My life is truly abundantly joyful!